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Those who walk in darkness wander aimlessly.

Still Alive

Can't say where. Can't say what I'm doing. But he hasn't gotten me yet.

T̪̠̝̦̬͎ͣ̎͐̓̓̆ͧh̰̼̤̜̩̑͗̽̎͐͘͠e̶̻̞̍͌̿ͭ̍ͭ́͢͜ ̮͍̳̼̤̼̻̂ͯ͆̑̋͋͛͘͝F͎̠̗͂̆̾̈́̒̎ͯ͟i̸̫̪̰̩̰̖̜̳ͫ̓̍ͭͭͨ̃̓ͅf̋ͬ̚͝҉҉͎̖̰̥͖̖̱t̟̫͇̹̪̦̗͗h̶̞̯͖̭͚͕͕̎̀̾͂͆͗͒̎͜ ̸̣̫̜͗ͫĄ̢̌͒͒ͩͭ̚҉͇̻̫͔

4͕̠̥͔͐̿̓ͥͫ̿̔̇̓͜ ̶͇͚͉̰͕̳ͮ̀̃͗ͦ̂̒̈́番ͮͪͩ͡҉̩目̸͈̬͊͆ͯ͒͢の͉͚̫̣͔͉̄̇̎ͣ́̃͋̂ア͔̻̥͍̊̀̕͠͡リ̶̛͈̬̘͈ͫ̍̿ͪͫ̕ス ̴̷̡̪̠̥͕̪̓̏͂ツ̔͑͑̒̆̄̀́̚͏̝̫̣̻̰͍̩̰̜イ̛͈̰̖̠͓ͧン̣̦̭͋̐ͩ͛ズ̶̷̥̳̥͎͌̂ͣ̽ͩ͑̽̚̕ͅハ ̹̫̯͈̜͔͌̍ͦ͆ͥ͋͘͠ー̶̜̗ͥ̈ͭ̍͑̎ͫ̂̕ト̭͍̙͍̠̙̳̜ͮ̉͐ͫͣ̑̌̌͟͡ͅは̧̩̜̠͙̫͓ͦͥͭ̈́̀、 ̸̳̝̹̲̙̦̘̣̈́ͨ͊さ̖̫͉̠͚̩͉̳ͭ
̴̖̉ͩͫ͡不̧̦͚̦̺̮͊͆思͙̹̞̋͑̋́͋̐議 ͈̰̼̞̃͑ͤ́ͣ̌に̢̧̮̯̭̪̅ͦ̓、̛̻͖͚͉̀̚͞彼̧̱͎̟͐͒̓́̓ͅら̵̧̮̟͍̝̦̲̟̠̌の̶͔̱̇̆̕好̶̨͙͔̟͂͂͜奇 ̇ͣ͆̅̍҉̴̲̘̗̫̤心̡̺͇͖̮̭̖̘̽ͣ͂̑ͪ̒ͩͤ̆ͅも̢̥̪̳̭̳ͮ̐̈́̅ͦ͢た̬̰̙͚̖͛̌͒ͦ̄ͤ̾̀̊́ら̡̟̉ͪͨ̔̇̕す ̸̩̤̠͇̫̱͙̎ͫ͗ͯͨ̆ͤ
̷̛͙͚̱̥̼̻̳̉̾͑ͤ̔̈ͬ̚ͅ偽ͫͯ́̚͏͉̩͈̥͖͓̥̣の ̴̧͉̩̯̰̤͕̆̐̇̅ͮ̄͢す̸̸̢̱͙̗͉̗̣͙̅ͫ͋̾ͩべ̛̞̼̲̪̪̺̏ͤ̇͌̍ͭ͡て̡̡̟͈̞̟̰͗̈ͤ́の̝̽̋̒̉̆̍̌͜͝͠種 ̥̖̰͂͐ͅ類̶̄͋ͣ̋͒ͥ͞҉͙͎̻͚͚̟͈̹に̧ͬ̀͏͎̣は̶̲͍̱̓̕、̵̡̦͓͉ͤͨͮͣ̆ͭ̀ͅド̨̳̠̳̘̯ͩ̉ア̸̫̲ͨͭ̌ͯ͋͑͛ を̷̱͐͗́作̡̲̝ͥ̉́̇͆̂͒̈́る̗̜͍͇̩̲̏̀
̷̛̠͕͙̺̋͛̒͗̾̀̎͐̃̀ビ̙̃̊ͧ͌̔ͪッ ͤͫͤ͑҉̵̛͖̮̩グ̟̯̱̘͎̒͋̈̑̐ͬ͆́̚͝シ̎ͭ̍͏̸̵͙̠̦͓̗ス̨̼̤̈́́̀ͭ͆̀͌̾͞タ͖ͩー ̷̠͉̙̩͇͕̱͕̃͗͒̓̓͆̃͊̚、͉̬̼̜̻̦͇ͨ̓̅ͮ̂͟厳͚̞̾ͫ͐̆̌̉ͣし̖͚͈̹̮͚̋ͫͤ̆ͩ̔̀͊͟い͎̜̬͆͗̃ͣ̏ͩで ̸̥̦͍̦̞̤̐͆̅͒̌̔ͫ̉͟す̶̢̭ͯ́̓̾
̜͉̲̔ͩ͝弟͇͚̼͈̞̳̰ͭͧ͛͛̎̃̇͡ͅ、 ̷̡̹̝̮̰̜̎̽ͨ̽͞イͬ̓̂ͤ̿͏̡̭͡ン͉̦̠̤̬͓̫̜ͥ͊ͯ̚テͥ̉͑̎ͯ҉̘リ̶̙̠̯͚̮̄̏̍͛ͭジ̴͙̱͍̿ェ̳̍̃̐͑ͦ̂̄ン ̸̛̣̮̖͓̋̊̒͌ト̨̮̗̬̳͇̮̅̓̄̐͐ͫ
̸̫̟̱̐̓ͮͤ̈彼͚͔̯̬̾ͣ͂ͪͪ̾̕͢͞ら ͖̝̘̞̒ͩ̒͂͝は̯̻͖̂̀ͬ͜͝ͅ、̼̯̥̼̹͓͉͓ͤ͌͊́最͎͔̺͍͉̇̋̀̕͝初̸͍͎͍̬̫̬̭͍ͭ̂̈́̀͡に̿̌̓̾ͧ҉̩͉͈̟͉̯ア ̢̢͉͔͈̪̭̥̗͚̽͂͊̿リͯ͛̍͒ͭͩͪ͏̫̭̮̠̗̝ス̛̌̎ͨ̅҉̢̭̲̣̱͍͚ͅに̴͉̖̭̙͓̣̰͚̳̏̋͒ͪ̉͑͐̿は ̶̱̙̻̺̟̑͟、̦̠̱̘ͣ̃̊͡近̸̷̢̗̹̹͓͔̇̆͋̐ͤ̓̇̎く̨͔̪̭̆̓̀に̗̬̘͚̲̻ͣ́ͬ̌̒͡ͅい̣͔͕̜̻͋̓ͥ̄͊ͩ͡た ͨͮ̐ͭ͏̶̯̺̣̟
̰̂̾̀ͨ̔̔͌ͦ̀し̡͍͕̞̼͖̈́̈̆̄̏̾ͮ̈̓͘͜か̽̿̂ͧ̕͢͏̥̱̟̲し ̢̛̣̣̖͙̱͑́ͥ̇͑͜、͎̇彼̞͚̞̺͍̬̦̏́ͩ͑ͧら̮̝̰̬̲͇̔̃̊ͭͥ̀͞の̛̼̺͚͇͇̗ͤͧ̔ͩ̒̉ͪ夢̲̟̠̝́̓͝は ̡̲̞̣͚͖̐ͤ̔͗ͣ̐̚͝ま͖͈͉̠̙̖͗̔̈̓͂̊̉̂ͣ͞だ̡̼͙̗̬̜͇̱̺̊̉ͪ͒̓͊ͣ͡目̡̰̮̝͚̅͗ͫ̑̑̚覚̓̑҉͚̤̞̥͈̜め ̱̻̱̹͓ͧͨ̿̋ͬ̾̊͒ͥ͘て̨̫̞̼͚̼̋ͮͭͤͦͬ͑͋ͅい͇͉̌̓ͬ̾な̓̒ͨͦ҉͓̜̹̪̝い̫̘̩͖̝͈͍̎ͥ́̓̒̀̓̚。 ̵̻͙̠ͨ̉͌ͭ̊̒̄̅̕͜
̶͇̼̦̪͎̳̩̪̺ͣ̓͜͜

Zack

I tried messaging Zack on his facebook, but I haven't gotten a reply. All I found was some cryptic, impossible to read gibberish. It's unsettling, and I don't know what it means. When I try putting it through a word processor and change the font, all I get are random letters and spaces and junk like that. I hope something hasn't happened to him.

No matter what I do, I keep thinking about Adrian. It's creepy and weird. I'm pretty sure I'm not queer or anything, but he won't get out of my mind. I keep expecting to see him everywhere I go-- almost wanting to.

Damn it all.

NEW

I just got something in the mail: an envelope from Japan. It had only one thing in it:



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So what the heck is that? A puzzle? A code? The key to either?

Changes and Alices

I talked to my aunt, and got her to change the shrink I'm seeing. Right now, I'm afraid that every time I go somewhere or turn a corner, I'll see Adrian there. I don't want to, but I want to at the same time. It's freaking weird. I haven't listened to Alice Human Sacrifice for a while, but it's always running through my head.

I wonder if this Reiko Asahi is the third Alice?